Under the Disco Ball

The music was pounding 

My heart beat along with it 

The bodies grinding 

Hands feeling, stench of sweat high in the air 

 You were dead drunk 

Face red, speech blurred 

You were dead drunk 

I tried to tell myself that, couldn’t survive if I didn’t 

 I watched that girl 

She held onto you 

I watched you 

You remembered nothing of empty promises 

 She sees me staring 

Smirks - knowing, understanding 

She wasn’t me 

And I, was nothing she’d ever want to be 

 You look up 

Smile at me 

You called out to me 

I turned away – refusing to be made a fool of 

 I walk, hurried, ran 

Out, need to get out 

Pushed against the sweaty bodies 

I couldn’t breathe – felt like drowning, perhaps I was dying 

 She leaves 

No fun now, no play 

She turns away 

Leaving you to clean up with chocolates, roses, empty promises 

 You arrive 

Wine, teddy bear, diamonds 

I open the doors again 

Believing the lies you tell me – wouldn’t live if I didn’t 

 Tonight 

The music will pound again