I scrolled through my documents, relishing the moments, enjoying and discovering my new desktop. One particular document caught my mind. That one story I had written for you just last year. Me, so silly and foolish, so caught up in the moment. And you, only god know what you were thinking. Wave after wave of memories wash through me. The past year had been eventful.
We met, one afternoon. I was keeping to myself, only talking to the cross-country runners, as I knew them from before. You were laughing with your track-and-field teammates. We barely knew each other. We spoke, only because of a chance given by fate. Honestly, if it weren’t for fate, I wouldn’t be this happy now. Honestly, if it wasn’t for you, I would most probably be alone now.
“I need to leave early on Wednesday,” I told my physics teacher, CCA teacher-in-charge, and above all, my friend.
“Why?”
“Church. It’s Ash Wednesday,” I told him, with a don’t-you-know tone.
You cut in, “Why don’t you going in the morning?”
I glanced at you, “My friends are all going in the evening, plus, morning mass starts at 5.30am. I’ll die.”
“C’mon, go with me and Michael, it’ll be fine. Then we can go to school together after that. School starts late anyway,” you badgered.
I bit my lip. You were cute. That was all. Nothing else. But, me, being so caught up in the moment, agreed. It was an impulse, and a foolish one. But if it weren’t for that one foolish impulse, I wouldn’t be so contented right now.
You and I fell for each other from the start. Yet, we weren’t meant to be. Your heart wasn’t loyal, wasn’t true. You weren’t what I wanted. I was left once again alone, and betrayed. Looking back, I’m glad you did that. If it weren’t for you, I wouldn’t have found what I was really looking for. Where there are endings, there will be beginnings.
Thanks to you I made new friends within your group, especially with two certain boys. Or rather two, very gallant young men. They knew, what you did to me. They knew how hurt I was, even though I tried hard to cover it up. And one of them began to touch my heart.
It was a chance that fate gave; a beginning for an ending. He and I started out as mere friends, where he would ask me for help with Literature and such. We would hang out, go for movies and basically be friends. I don’t know when it happened, but it did. Suddenly, everything thing changed. Something happened, and I realized I was slowly falling for this person. My feelings reciprocated.
On 6th September 2009, it happened. Nothing asked, nothing said. We just got together, our quiet, little romance. We have ups-and-downs like any couple would, but otherwise fine. It is like we are made for each other. Where I am rash, he slows me down. Where he is planned, I am spontaneous. Like ying-and-yang, we matched each other in every way. So honestly, I have you to thank. If it weren’t for you and what you did, I would most probably still moping somewhere else now, getting hurt all over again. So even though what yoœu did to me was somewhat unforgivable, thank you. Because it was what you did that help me find such happiness today.
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